It seems that all I have done is wait. I waited for money to reverse the vasectomy. I waited for results. I waited for referrals. I waited for financing. I waited longer for financing. I waited for financing to take effect. And...for the past three day's I've had med's in my fridge ($6700.00 worth to be exact), and I am waiting for cycle day 1 to start...and I'm waiting.
Now I have always been a 28 day kind of girl. Last month I was 30, which set this all off. Now, Im 29. I have been spotting since Monday. I just started today..It works though, as I will take 375U of Follistim for 3 days, and then get my blood and ultrasound on Monday. My first day off. The downside is I have to take all of my doses of medication at work. The upside...if I have some weird reaction, or can't bring myself to do it, I am in an emergency room...someone will know what to do :)
Well Im off to plant my vegetable garden. I have so many half done projects in my house I am forcing myself to nest early...and get things done before I just want to sit back and enjoy a baby..I hope.
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Thursday, April 29, 2010
Thursday, September 17, 2009
I want off this rollercoaster
It has been so long since my last post, as I think I had given up on the IVF route. The expense is so much to even begin to imagine, and our credit is tapped at the moment. We bought our house in July, and that doubled our housing payment. DH is working on his master's degree, and should finish in December. He is hopeful for a higher paying job. I have picked up a per diem nursing job giving flu shots. I can pick up time when I want to without any requirements on working weekends or holidays. I plan to use that to buy our Christmas gifts, and continue paying off our stupid debt so we can finance part of our IVF.
I had really written the IVF off. Depressing as it was I was convinced that we were just bound to not have children. I had worked hard to finance it, but it seemed like I was the only one doing it. I would work overtime, only to have DH order new computer parts, or go out to lunch everyday. Our debt only grew. Then, DH interviewed and got offered a job through the state, which had insurance that covered IVF, up to 20000.00. HOW EXCITING! I let my imagination get away with me. We told our parents, I started planning nurseries....oh what a dangerous gig that was.
I now work as an Emergency nurse in a level 1 trauma center! My dream job. The hours are 4pm to 4am three days per week. Sounds bad, but the hours work. Someday when I have nothing else to say, I will tell you why they work, but for now, I digress. I woke up after working an overnight to have my DH tell me he thought that the job with the state would be too psychologically damaging for him to take. I think I lost my mind. I was so irrational I didn't even know who I was. He had a whole month between interviewing and getting the offer to think about what he would be doing, and he decides NOW! Now that I have gotten my hopes up, reawakened my dreams...I realize that he needs to do what he needs to do to remain a whole person. I was just crushed. It's been a few days, and after coffee with a great friend, I feel like a reasonable person again.
So, we have a new plan. We hope to begin our actual IVF cycle the first of the year. We have an appointment on October 2ND in Waltham for consultation for PESA with the urologist, and then a consult on October 8th locally for Boston IVF. We will be monitored here in Maine, but have the egg retrieval and transfer done in Boston. I am hopeful that this will work out. I am committed to paying off our debt though, just in case the financing plan we have now doesn't work out. Our plan is to use our flex spending, as our roll over dates are different. It sounds like the IVF center is willing and able to help us work the details out.
Well, I am off for now. Also, I know many of you don't like the ads in the blog, but let's face it. IVF is expensive, and anytime you click on the ads we make a little money. Think of it as a donation :)
I had really written the IVF off. Depressing as it was I was convinced that we were just bound to not have children. I had worked hard to finance it, but it seemed like I was the only one doing it. I would work overtime, only to have DH order new computer parts, or go out to lunch everyday. Our debt only grew. Then, DH interviewed and got offered a job through the state, which had insurance that covered IVF, up to 20000.00. HOW EXCITING! I let my imagination get away with me. We told our parents, I started planning nurseries....oh what a dangerous gig that was.
I now work as an Emergency nurse in a level 1 trauma center! My dream job. The hours are 4pm to 4am three days per week. Sounds bad, but the hours work. Someday when I have nothing else to say, I will tell you why they work, but for now, I digress. I woke up after working an overnight to have my DH tell me he thought that the job with the state would be too psychologically damaging for him to take. I think I lost my mind. I was so irrational I didn't even know who I was. He had a whole month between interviewing and getting the offer to think about what he would be doing, and he decides NOW! Now that I have gotten my hopes up, reawakened my dreams...I realize that he needs to do what he needs to do to remain a whole person. I was just crushed. It's been a few days, and after coffee with a great friend, I feel like a reasonable person again.
So, we have a new plan. We hope to begin our actual IVF cycle the first of the year. We have an appointment on October 2ND in Waltham for consultation for PESA with the urologist, and then a consult on October 8th locally for Boston IVF. We will be monitored here in Maine, but have the egg retrieval and transfer done in Boston. I am hopeful that this will work out. I am committed to paying off our debt though, just in case the financing plan we have now doesn't work out. Our plan is to use our flex spending, as our roll over dates are different. It sounds like the IVF center is willing and able to help us work the details out.
Well, I am off for now. Also, I know many of you don't like the ads in the blog, but let's face it. IVF is expensive, and anytime you click on the ads we make a little money. Think of it as a donation :)
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Today begins our IVF journey.
To quote a much overused quote...what a long strange trip it's been. After my husbands vasectomy reversal in January, we tried each cycle to have a baby. Each month we discovered that we were unsuccessful. Finally we opted to have a semen analysis done in order to see what we were up against.
We did the sample at home, following the strict guidelines set up and drove it to the lab on a Thursday. By Monday, my OB/GYN called to see if our surgeon gave us the results. I told her no, and she asked if I wanted her to give them to me. I agreed, and she told me there were no swimmers. Not 1. This is not good. I really wasn't anticipating this.
We did finally hear from the surgeon with the same news, and he wanted to meet with us. We put that off though. I think the shock of the whole thing was enough for now. We did finally decide to see him, and he determined that after seeing how my husbands vasectomy was done to begin with, he is not sure that he would be able to successfully redo it. He refered us for IVF.
Today we had our appointment with The Center for Reproductive Technology. We arrived at 1:05...late as usual for me. They took my weight, and blood pressure, and we sat in a consultation room. The doctor talked to us about our medical histories and our chances. Since I am a relatively young healthy female, and my husband is almost as healthy, we have a 90% chance of IVF success. A 20% chance of twins which has my husband very excited.
We then met with the nurse, who really told us nothing. We did meet with the financial manager. She was great. She outlined the cost. We are looking at around 15000.00 for cycle 1 with everything included. I am not going to get my hopes up for a successful round 1, however; we will freeze any excess embryo's for future use, which will save a lot of money in the long run.
Oddly enough, this all cost us 450.00....
Words are expensive :)
Good night...
Pj
We did the sample at home, following the strict guidelines set up and drove it to the lab on a Thursday. By Monday, my OB/GYN called to see if our surgeon gave us the results. I told her no, and she asked if I wanted her to give them to me. I agreed, and she told me there were no swimmers. Not 1. This is not good. I really wasn't anticipating this.
We did finally hear from the surgeon with the same news, and he wanted to meet with us. We put that off though. I think the shock of the whole thing was enough for now. We did finally decide to see him, and he determined that after seeing how my husbands vasectomy was done to begin with, he is not sure that he would be able to successfully redo it. He refered us for IVF.
Today we had our appointment with The Center for Reproductive Technology. We arrived at 1:05...late as usual for me. They took my weight, and blood pressure, and we sat in a consultation room. The doctor talked to us about our medical histories and our chances. Since I am a relatively young healthy female, and my husband is almost as healthy, we have a 90% chance of IVF success. A 20% chance of twins which has my husband very excited.
We then met with the nurse, who really told us nothing. We did meet with the financial manager. She was great. She outlined the cost. We are looking at around 15000.00 for cycle 1 with everything included. I am not going to get my hopes up for a successful round 1, however; we will freeze any excess embryo's for future use, which will save a lot of money in the long run.
Oddly enough, this all cost us 450.00....
Words are expensive :)
Good night...
Pj
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Disappointment
Another cycle has come to an end, and we are not pregnant yet. Being fully aware that in any given month the average couple has a 25-30% chance of conceiving is not a comfort. I really need to stop stressing out about this, and let it happen if it is going to, but that is so much easier said than done.
I worry because I know that the odds are stacked against us after paying $10,000.00 for a vasectomy reversal. I worry that it just won't happen. i think if it doesn't happen, we will still have a lot of fun adventuring, but I will have to figure out how to let go of this.
In other news, my dog gets his stitches out on Saturday, and I believe they will have to go right back in. The first set I took out after 10 days, and the wound was still open. It was restitched, and in my professional opinion it hasn't closed, but we shall see. It's in such a horrible spot (that flap of sking that kind of hangs between the back leg and the belly). It's such a high action, low blood flow spot. We shall see.
I am hoping to be able to take my ACLS cerfitication in the next few months and begin really preparing myself to move into the Emergency Room from the Surgical Floor. I wish that there was an ACNP program offered online. The only one requires you to work in certain states, and I cant commit to that until I know what is going on with us for the next few years.
I am starting to feel like a pessimist, which I am not. So on the bright side, with a lot of hard work and research, I have been successful in raising our credit scores by 100 points EACH in less than 4 months. It is amazing. I would highly recommend www.creditboards.org. The people are so helpful, and there is some invaluable advice.
Well, I must sign off. My husband rode his bike to work, and blew his tire. So I have to go get him.
Babydust to all who are trying, and keep hugging your bullies :)
I worry because I know that the odds are stacked against us after paying $10,000.00 for a vasectomy reversal. I worry that it just won't happen. i think if it doesn't happen, we will still have a lot of fun adventuring, but I will have to figure out how to let go of this.
In other news, my dog gets his stitches out on Saturday, and I believe they will have to go right back in. The first set I took out after 10 days, and the wound was still open. It was restitched, and in my professional opinion it hasn't closed, but we shall see. It's in such a horrible spot (that flap of sking that kind of hangs between the back leg and the belly). It's such a high action, low blood flow spot. We shall see.
I am hoping to be able to take my ACLS cerfitication in the next few months and begin really preparing myself to move into the Emergency Room from the Surgical Floor. I wish that there was an ACNP program offered online. The only one requires you to work in certain states, and I cant commit to that until I know what is going on with us for the next few years.
I am starting to feel like a pessimist, which I am not. So on the bright side, with a lot of hard work and research, I have been successful in raising our credit scores by 100 points EACH in less than 4 months. It is amazing. I would highly recommend www.creditboards.org. The people are so helpful, and there is some invaluable advice.
Well, I must sign off. My husband rode his bike to work, and blew his tire. So I have to go get him.
Babydust to all who are trying, and keep hugging your bullies :)
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