Disappointment

Another cycle has come to an end, and we are not pregnant yet. Being fully aware that in any given month the average couple has a 25-30% chance of conceiving is not a comfort. I really need to stop stressing out about this, and let it happen if it is going to, but that is so much easier said than done.

I worry because I know that the odds are stacked against us after paying $10,000.00 for a vasectomy reversal. I worry that it just won't happen. i think if it doesn't happen, we will still have a lot of fun adventuring, but I will have to figure out how to let go of this.

In other news, my dog gets his stitches out on Saturday, and I believe they will have to go right back in. The first set I took out after 10 days, and the wound was still open. It was restitched, and in my professional opinion it hasn't closed, but we shall see. It's in such a horrible spot (that flap of sking that kind of hangs between the back leg and the belly). It's such a high action, low blood flow spot. We shall see.

I am hoping to be able to take my ACLS cerfitication in the next few months and begin really preparing myself to move into the Emergency Room from the Surgical Floor. I wish that there was an ACNP program offered online. The only one requires you to work in certain states, and I cant commit to that until I know what is going on with us for the next few years.

I am starting to feel like a pessimist, which I am not. So on the bright side, with a lot of hard work and research, I have been successful in raising our credit scores by 100 points EACH in less than 4 months. It is amazing. I would highly recommend www.creditboards.org. The people are so helpful, and there is some invaluable advice.

Well, I must sign off. My husband rode his bike to work, and blew his tire. So I have to go get him.

Babydust to all who are trying, and keep hugging your bullies :)

It's the waiting that sucks

Anyone who has tried to have a baby, on purpose, can probably relate. It's all about waiting, waiting for the right time, waiting to test, waiting to see if martha rears her ugly head, and then waiting again. It really sucks.

It also seems that those around you are dipped in fertility juice, especially the ones who don't want kids. I am hoping that we are not in that group that try for 5+years.

On the upside, if it doesn't work out, we are only 2 years away from an adventure. Once my stepdaughter graduates and figures life out, we are going to hit the road with a travel nurse company and do some adventuring. I imagine my husband can work on his master's degree and we can find little nooks in the world we never knew existed. He has traveled a bit, but I have not.

I was hoping to take a photography class starting on Thursday. I traded work on Thursday (a day shift) for a night shift tonight so I could make the first clas. As luck would have it, the class is full. That is what I get for my procrastination. Oh well, I can spend the next 8 thursdays doing something.

I'm off to the gym, and then a nap.

As always...remember to hug your pit bull :) And if you don't have one, make room for one. http://www.pitbullrescuecentral.org/