The wonder of it all...

It's been a while since I've posted, but truly not much has changed. We are still trying to have a baby. Though I went to a preconception visit with a highly recommended OB/GYN today, just truly a meet and greet. She did a standard information gathering and a quick internal and declared me perfect. That is at least one good thing. Now we are going to get a semen analysis and see how the swimmers are. If there are issues with them, we will end up with intrauterine insemination. I am hoping that we can just keep trying the natural way. I have started taking FertilAid and Fertile CM, I will let you all know how it goes. Oh, and I found that in cycles that I work the night shift, it adds two days to each portion of my cycle. Weird huh?

I am still hoping to take ACLS in the next few months. If I can get that, I might pick up some per diem ER work at a critical access hospital, and get myself some ER experience while waiting. I really want to work ER in a level 1 trauma center. We have had so many nurses leave, that there is a lot of extra time available. So, I am working a lot lately. Hopefully it will slow down, but the money is good while we are trying to buy a house.

I am starting a running program. Attempting to get into better shape. I have let go of the scale, that damn thing never moves. Now I just want my clothes to fit better and maybe to feel comfortable in some summer clothes. We shall see.

I suppose that is all for now. Not too much exciting new.

Disappointment

Another cycle has come to an end, and we are not pregnant yet. Being fully aware that in any given month the average couple has a 25-30% chance of conceiving is not a comfort. I really need to stop stressing out about this, and let it happen if it is going to, but that is so much easier said than done.

I worry because I know that the odds are stacked against us after paying $10,000.00 for a vasectomy reversal. I worry that it just won't happen. i think if it doesn't happen, we will still have a lot of fun adventuring, but I will have to figure out how to let go of this.

In other news, my dog gets his stitches out on Saturday, and I believe they will have to go right back in. The first set I took out after 10 days, and the wound was still open. It was restitched, and in my professional opinion it hasn't closed, but we shall see. It's in such a horrible spot (that flap of sking that kind of hangs between the back leg and the belly). It's such a high action, low blood flow spot. We shall see.

I am hoping to be able to take my ACLS cerfitication in the next few months and begin really preparing myself to move into the Emergency Room from the Surgical Floor. I wish that there was an ACNP program offered online. The only one requires you to work in certain states, and I cant commit to that until I know what is going on with us for the next few years.

I am starting to feel like a pessimist, which I am not. So on the bright side, with a lot of hard work and research, I have been successful in raising our credit scores by 100 points EACH in less than 4 months. It is amazing. I would highly recommend www.creditboards.org. The people are so helpful, and there is some invaluable advice.

Well, I must sign off. My husband rode his bike to work, and blew his tire. So I have to go get him.

Babydust to all who are trying, and keep hugging your bullies :)